Posted in Epiphany, Human Rights, Perspective

Avalon Walking

Free-style-writing

I am Avalon walking. I am a bridge between the peoples. I am the joy of love and laughter. I serve community and balance. I serve to heal the rifts between previous judgments and current reality. I serve courage and compassion. I serve God, Goddess and Godex. I will see ALL the people treated with fairness and love. In the unlikely path of Athena and Hades, I love both dearly and serve them with a spirit of justice and refuge, peace and recuperation. I hope to build the formation of fellowships that give way to better understanding between the people of this world.

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Posted in Astrology, Epiphany, Ministry

Doing Nineth house work when it’s Empty

Every time I come across someone doing readings online, I’m always curious what Deity has to say about my path work.

There are so many paths out before me, that I find myself paralyzed by the inability to make a choice because I am terrified of getting it wrong, and I’m worried that my ideas to help and to spread knowledge has more to do with ego than helping people. Can we say past religious and spiritual teacher trauma?

I worry about the colonialism inherent in my perspective growing up white on Turtle Island (North America) will do more harm than good. Sharing my healing journey feels like tooting my own horn, and building myself a platform, elevating myself and setting myself up as a false prophetess. Can we say lifelong trauma, depression, anxiety, CPTSD and till recently untreated ADHD?

The root of this, as I sit with the uncomfortable feeling is fear that I have nothing to add to the conversation. That my voice, white presenting, female, fat… has no place at the table.

So I sit here drowning in inaction. I am passionate about exposing white supremacy in Wiccan and pagan spaces. I am passionate about healing. I am passionate that solitary path-workers, are just as important and deserve a place and space to offer their voice or word to the ongoing conversation that is the evolving spirituality of becoming re-naturalized to the earth and moving towards nature centered work that is effective, ethical and equitable.

The work seems overwhelming and my scope unfocused. I’ve been awash in ideas, all unrealized for years now. I happened to be on the clock app this morning and a creator, another path-worker shared some insight as the live feed was generating its own energy – insight for the spectators as well as the practitioner / host. In that space it was shared that perhaps the idea, task, project, path does not need to be so categorized.

One of the tidbits that was mentioned, in the group that had gathered was to examine our own birth charts for the 9th house and the relation to the moon to that house.

My 9th house, is empty. The 9th house has to do with our search for meaning, spirituality, awareness and exploration.

My moon however is hanging out in the 6th house which has to do with service, self improvement, and the state of our health.

So… the absolutely funny thing for me is that I am stuck between how I am going to serve the community, and share my healing journey so that perhaps one person somewhere along the way will not hurt as I have, will not feel alone as I have, and perhaps might find their joy more easily than I.

Its no wonder to me, that I struggle to define all that I feel about spirit work when the 9th house is empty?!?

Some people say that the empty house can indicate that these lessons are not work that you are pulled to explore by spirit / choose at reincarnation.

I do not know what I think about it all. However, I am going to work on speaking, in words, voice.. something. I’d be curious to hear what astrology witches have to say about empty houses in your chart if you happen to know of published work, or your own two cents I find myself greatly curious cause I have quite a few empty houses and I have not yet experienced the personal ring of truth for how that can pluck the strings of fate in my life.

Credit to Peachkka for hosting the space that allowed this realization to come into the light.

Posted in Epiphany, Faerie

Preserving the Balance

Another reason Self Care is Essential

A wise friend of mine, Mary from Walks Within posted something on their Facebook about different methods of ‘unwinding’. One of the options was to be given permission to NOT be helpful.

I know I know…. what sorcery is this?!

So I replied that I was using this method lately and even using it to create better boundaries. for myself as well as others. Then it came to me, that on some level my historic inability to accept help or ask for help can be another way to make other people feel indebted to me.

Well that is a nasty thought….

Luckily, for my own sanity, I have been working very hard to let people help. To ask for it and to graciously accept help when offered. In addition to offering help myself as a nurturing personality. It is a part of the energy exchange that makes up a healthy human existence.

Healthy human what now?!

That’s right. Healthy Human existence. I have been informed that it is a possibility and a reality for some! When we do nothing but give of ourselves, we create a gap in the cycle of energy between ourselves and others.

We see this imbalance in the condition of our natural environment, in overworked societies, in the rise of mental health problems. The cycle of give and take is essential to our well being.

Isn’t that a kick in the chest….

The idea that we, as a society and me, as an individual has short changed myself and helped create imbalance and undue advantage of my generosity, and the possibility of manipulating others into liking me, or feeling indebted to me is a hard pill to swallow.

Sadly I think my enlightened self has a point.

Another interesting point is the Fae Element. It is part of the Fae condition that you do not thank a Fairy. Never. Not in so many words, not personally. It can breed bad luck. There other ways to express gratitude and those are a must, and easily understood. Humans without the touch of Fae do not understand these other methods of gratitude. Therefore, it is my hypothesis of those of us who are Fae-Touched share a natural disinclination to accept help. We are also often not understood that we are expressing gratitude in our language but not understood by many humans who are not touched by our magic.

Advisement…. being an asshole is NOT being ‘fairy’ and gas-lighting people into your reality and dismissing theirs is abusive, not magical.

As a Witch, my primary goal is to see to the preservation of Balance. Not only of the world outside of me, but within myself as well. As within, so without.

Posted in Epiphany, Quotes

Awaken your Passion

There once was a girl, who ran with the wolves in the forests and mountains. She ran freely, and with love, passion, joy and ecstasy. She learned the ways of her Ancestors, and heard the Grandmother Wind through the leaves of the trees speak of history while Grandfather Moon hung low in the night sky so show what was to come.

Find your joy so it may never be forgotten. All those who love you, will carry it with them, and speak of your light to their children, and their children’s children. Awaken your Passion.

 

Posted in Epiphany, Grief, Human Rights

Inclusion, Diversity, Decolonization

I’ve felt sometimes perhaps the world has become over cautious in trying to ‘make nice’ with those who have been marginalized, vilified and persecuted.

I have looked at it with the view point that every single race of people in the history of the world has preyed on their conquests, the odd animals in the pack are killed off. This behavior as an overall view doesn’t seem out of character for this world – and I have found myself feeling odd that it’s such a problem. Bare with me, I’m getting there.

Then again I am a white, cis female who isn’t obviously ‘other’ when you first look at me.

Then I started to think about how when dealing with trauma victims people have a period of time where they are managed; people around them are extra cautious about triggering the trauma. As time goes on we begin to treat these people more and more normally without necessarily being hyper aware of their past trauma, though we still acknowledge the struggle it could be.

In the recent history of the world as we know it in the United States our African American rights have changed drastically. Japanese Americans were imprisoned in WWII, women continued to fight for a place in careers, LBGQ+ just recently granted the same rights and responsibilities of straight married partners, Indigenous Americans were rather recently in the grand scheme of things, recognized as citizens for the purpose of national votes.

Their trauma is newer. Their crisis is still being felt.

Sadly, in some cases their crisis is still being experienced… and now we have government sanctioned terror like ICE.

I’m sure I’m not the first person to think of this, and I won’t be the last. It strikes me that if a person is healed by time and space to recover from a trauma, perhaps we should let our cultures who have been traumatized the time and space to recover as well.