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Doing Nineth house work when it’s Empty

Every time I come across someone doing readings online, I’m always curious what Deity has to say about my path work.

There are so many paths out before me, that I find myself paralyzed by the inability to make a choice because I am terrified of getting it wrong, and I’m worried that my ideas to help and to spread knowledge has more to do with ego than helping people. Can we say past religious and spiritual teacher trauma?

I worry about the colonialism inherent in my perspective growing up white on Turtle Island (North America) will do more harm than good. Sharing my healing journey feels like tooting my own horn, and building myself a platform, elevating myself and setting myself up as a false prophetess. Can we say lifelong trauma, depression, anxiety, CPTSD and till recently untreated ADHD?

The root of this, as I sit with the uncomfortable feeling is fear that I have nothing to add to the conversation. That my voice, white presenting, female, fat… has no place at the table.

So I sit here drowning in inaction. I am passionate about exposing white supremacy in Wiccan and pagan spaces. I am passionate about healing. I am passionate that solitary path-workers, are just as important and deserve a place and space to offer their voice or word to the ongoing conversation that is the evolving spirituality of becoming re-naturalized to the earth and moving towards nature centered work that is effective, ethical and equitable.

The work seems overwhelming and my scope unfocused. I’ve been awash in ideas, all unrealized for years now. I happened to be on the clock app this morning and a creator, another path-worker shared some insight as the live feed was generating its own energy – insight for the spectators as well as the practitioner / host. In that space it was shared that perhaps the idea, task, project, path does not need to be so categorized.

One of the tidbits that was mentioned, in the group that had gathered was to examine our own birth charts for the 9th house and the relation to the moon to that house.

My 9th house, is empty. The 9th house has to do with our search for meaning, spirituality, awareness and exploration.

My moon however is hanging out in the 6th house which has to do with service, self improvement, and the state of our health.

So… the absolutely funny thing for me is that I am stuck between how I am going to serve the community, and share my healing journey so that perhaps one person somewhere along the way will not hurt as I have, will not feel alone as I have, and perhaps might find their joy more easily than I.

Its no wonder to me, that I struggle to define all that I feel about spirit work when the 9th house is empty?!?

Some people say that the empty house can indicate that these lessons are not work that you are pulled to explore by spirit / choose at reincarnation.

I do not know what I think about it all. However, I am going to work on speaking, in words, voice.. something. I’d be curious to hear what astrology witches have to say about empty houses in your chart if you happen to know of published work, or your own two cents I find myself greatly curious cause I have quite a few empty houses and I have not yet experienced the personal ring of truth for how that can pluck the strings of fate in my life.

Credit to Peachkka for hosting the space that allowed this realization to come into the light.

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Unlocking your Superpower

I was watching a video from an Astrologer about the revelation of your secret super hero power (my analogy) based on the ruler of your 12th house.  Go ahead and watch it, hes got a lovely English accent… I’ll wait.

The Twelfth House contains all the hidden things, effects from past lives, karmic debts or weaknesses. I was taught that the 12th house has to do with your Karmic debts from past lives or your hidden/shadow self.

Light and shadow are opposite sides of the same coin. We can illuminate our paths or darken our way. It is a matter of choice.

Maya Angelou

I like the idea that we can take the residents of our twelfth house and turn them into our secret strength, or our superpower. While we may not understand those crazy goth kids living in the basement of the apartment complex of our astrological house, they are surprisingly insightful and wonderful neighbors. If you know how to talk to them (I may be biased, as I am the quirky gothic hippie witch neighbor…).

In my birth chart I have two players in the 12th house. Go figure…

I have Pisces in the cusp of the 12th house and the Sun square in the middle of it. I figure the sun lives there full time and Pisces is the live-in partner that still pays rent in another unit but they spend most of their time living together anyways.

In my chart that I pulled 19 years ago, it reports the following effects on my life. Pisces indicates a fear of empathic or psychic abilities. Often signifying a life of service lived before where monetary gain was not important.  I am comfortable in the occult worlds but sometimes I do still feel the knee jerk twitch to defend myself or play down my skills. hmm…

The Sun being in the 12th house could also indicate that I exerted my will over those less powerful and now have a problem expressing my authority.

Another way of thinking about this is due to my personal agency being squashed like a Radroach on Fallout as a child, I have problems drawing boundary lines in my life. Sometimes they’re non-existent. Other times they may appear like a spiders’ web crisscrossing and offering me more protection but in reality constricting my evolution. What might your chart reflect? You can always follow Mr. Scott’s directions in his video.

The whole concept behind investigating your shadow self doesn’t have to be related to astrology or any kind of divination or mysticism of any kind.  In Jungian psychology, the ” shadow “, ” Id “, or ” shadow aspect/archetype ” may refer to (1) an unconscious aspect of the personality which the conscious ego does not identify in itself, or (2) the entirety of the unconscious, i.e., everything of which a person is not fully conscious. In short, the shadow is the “dark side”(a).

It all comes down to understanding the unconscious part of ourselves. Through that understanding we can unlock our strengths, and some of us even our calling in life. What does yours reflect? Find out about your superpower!

 



Reference:
(a)https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_%28psychology%2
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Looking in from the Outside: Current retrograde cycles of our outer planets

At this time, we have safely emerged from a Mercury retrograde, and a Venus retrograde and a Mars retrograde. These planets are all close to the Sun and therefore we tend to be a little more familiar with their comings and goings in the space of our universe.

The outer planets however tend to “walk softly and carry big sticks!” These guys go into retrograde for longer periods of time in the year because they are further away from the Sun and ourselves. This can at times, mean that their affect on us may take longer to realize though the learning curve is a little easier than the “younger” planets zipping through their orbits.

Slower orbit can make the lessons they bring a little easier on those of us who choose to listen for them. Their retrograde cycles are longer and full of space to reflect and make our choices.

Right now Saturn, Pluto and Neptune are all in a retrograde cycle. Uranus is about to start its retrograde cycle at the end of this month, and Saturn will be going direct around the second week of August.

Some of you may only know about our more vocal retrograde cycles from planets like Mercury. Perhaps you may not know about these other planets and this is a quick little guide to bring your awareness level up and hopefully shed some light on any challenges you may be facing.

Retrograde is when the planet appears to move backwards in its orbital progression. This manifests as the inverse of the typical characteristics and energy of the planet in question. This tends to be a good time to work on different aspects of the self and reach new conclusions about our realities that enable us to manifest our greatest good!

Saturn

Saturn is considered to be all about boundaries. Being focused. Saturn is about our expectations of ourselves, of family, of loved ones, of society and the global culture and where we fit into that.

Saturn helps give us that narrow focus to achieve our goals. Its energy allows us to stick with something difficult because when it comes through to completion it brings such a sense of reward and accomplishment! You know that feeling… deadlines.. Check…. Made that meeting… check… completed that project… check… organized your bills.. OH YES!

This is Saturn in it’s day to day forward momentum and some of the energy it brings to us. Now, we put it into Retrograde and all these aspects are suddenly running in counterpoint. Loss of focus, easily distracted, we begin to question everything and everyone in our path; especially ourselves.

What am I doing here? What am I accomplishing… Who do I want to be? Who am I now?

These questions are invaluable to growth, though they can be difficult to experience.

However, there is a fun point I’d like to make to Saturn in retrograde. Rules… GONE. It’s time to let your hair down metaphorically, and shake it out. Boundaries and expectations you have placed on yourself may suddenly be lessened… or gone. This is where we stretch our limits. We explore new aspects of ourselves and what we want.

What do you want?

Such an important question cannot be ignored for long.

Pluto

Pluto went into retrograde in April and will be coming out in September. Now Pluto, lovely little planet that has been through quite a lot of this nonsense about being a planet, then not being a planet. No wonder Pluto likes to really tear down all the walls we make.

When running normally Pluto’s energy helps us break down the things that no longer serve us. Pluto helps you see your delusional mask and rip it right off your face leaving nothing behind but your best possible self.

When Pluto is in retrograde, as it is now we have the opportunity to address our shadow-selves. Our shadow-self can be characterized as the darkness we feel inside, the things that we do not want others to see. The things that we work hard to control, to force into submission and to adhere to norms. Jealousy, greed, unproductive selfishness could all be considered shadow-traits.

When Pluto is no longer moving in an apparent forward motion, our awareness of our shadow-self intensifies. This is not a time to dread, it is a time to celebrate! We have an an opportunity to give ourselves permission to feel what we feel without judgment. One of the lessons of the Buddha is the acceptance of now…. ‘Good’ or ‘bad’. And it is through acceptance that enlightenment (our highest possible self) can be realized.

Pluto’s retrograde motion is its gift to us to help us learn acceptance. Once we accept, can we account for ourselves and make new decisions if we so choose.

Neptune

Neptune went into Retrograde in June, and will be there till November. Normally Neptune is all about dreams, fantasy, psychic awareness and all things we hope for as a society. What we dream about for ourselves. What we desire to come to pass. The key here is when Neptune is direct its energy is that of the collective consciousness dream.

This can sometimes be very confusing but it does help realize certain global desires such as an end to hate. When Neptune is direct sometimes we may feel overwhelmed by all the energy of Spirit.

When Neptune is in retrograde however, the energy inverses. It becomes easier to see, like a fog lifting from a meadow to reveal the fairy ring inside. You now have a choice of going into the ring. When Neptune is in retrograde you now have easier access to your metaphysical awareness. Dreams come more easily, and may be less complicated to understand.

This works very well with Saturn’s retrograde action of trying to discover what you want, because Neptune wants to show you how to get it.

Uranus

Uranus frankly has had enough of everyone’s excuses and would like to introduce radical and unconventional ways of accomplishing new ideas. Uranus is about innovation, new beginnings, revolution and challenge!

We all have that one friend that challenges us, that sometimes we don’t get along with because they ALWAYS see an opportunity for something to be better, more radical, more significant. Sometimes, we don’t answer that person’s call or text because we are feeling lazy.

Well it’s really hard to ignore a planet’s energy here. Uranus wants to remind you that you need that spark. This isn’t about the boundless energy of Mars… this is calculated meham. Sometimes that can be a bit much for us and we need a break.

Luckily Uranus will be going into retrograde at the end of July and give us all a break. This radical self reflection, awareness, and opportunity to address our challenges can be exhausting.

I know I’m tired, how about you all?

Did I say break? Well, depends on what you mean by break…..

During its retrograde cycle Uranus energy will tone down and become more focused inward. More self reflection I know, it’s good for you! However, now that the apparent motion is in reverse the energy is not as combustible as it is when it is in direct.

You may start to experience a slower, more reflective observations. Instead of the radical change and leap, you will have time to explore the why behind the change and address psychological and mental triggers. This is also a great time to work on overcoming addictions.

Just know, wherever you find yourself challenged in the retrogrades going on around you, that you retain total control. Knowledge of the energies at work in your reality give you the opportunity to embrace your joy, to find your dreams, to explore your limitations and see if they can be stretched.

xPosted to Panegyria August 2016
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Mercury in Retrograde & New Moon in Scorpio…

Today is not only a dark or new moon for us witches and pagans, but a partial solar eclips as well that can only be seen with a dark moon.  The moon will be in the house of scorpio and we are still in the midst of a particularly intense Mercury Retrograde period (at least for me).

This combination has many of us stretched a little thin and I am going to try to shead some light on what is going on and how we can turn it to our advantage.

First, a little about Mercury Retrograde ~ For me this means problems in communication problems. Things are missheard, things have been communicated as we felt clearly and someone does the complete opposite! HOW INFURIATING! Were we not clear!?! Well…. maybe we were not. These times bring our shadow selves into the light. It brings forth things we usually do not want to deal with, quirks, tasks, behaviors that really are not helpful for our well being and mercury throws it into sharp releif and forces us to deal with it (or you know you could just flail about and be pissed off about it if you want…)

Dark moon is a time of new beginnings, She has been dieing the last cycle, getting smaller and smaller untill BOOM, the moment of Her death is also Her birth and now Her power will grow. What will you choose to let go of personally? Dark moons are great for magic of a personal nature, this is a time to work within (vs Full moon which is great for working outside ourselves, or on creating things).  This is a time to reap our harvest, what will we collect, and what will we let go of?

The moon in Scorpio is an interesting time of hyper metaphysical power – no better partner in personal magic can be found I think than the Scorpion helping us make those hard decisions.  Scorpio provieds focus and an almost bullheaded tendency to just barge through a problem, to hell with the consequences we’re getting it done RIGHT?!? Who cares about the bloodshead, or the broken limbs (our own or someone elses’) we got it done! Right? Well… maybe not.

The thing to be careful of when the moon enters Scorpio, we get a bit secretive, we get a bit hyper focused, it’s easy to loose track of time in an effort to GET IT DONE. This can lead to loosing track of drink, food and SEX. It’s not that it’s an overindulgence, it’s just THAT easy to loose track of time and consume too much or not enough in our psychic quest to accomplish a goal.

We are also experiencing a partial eclipse! HA! Just when you thought the casserole of magic couldn’t get anymore complicated someone an ingredient. Don’t worry, it’s bacon and all will be well. The eclipse can be a great power boost to your magical endeavors today.  It will amplify anything goal oriented.

So now with all that information, I hope it helps clarify some of the feelings you’ve been having lately. I hope it helps illuminate before the time of dark so you can make the best choice for your path during that dark rebirth.

If you are at a loss of what to do today within, check out the Spell A Day from Llewellyn. It is a tarot money spell (if you don’t have a deck, just use notecards and write or draw the symbols of the tarot card in question). If you don’t have colored candles, just carve the color name into what you have, or tie string around the candle. Remember witches are practical. *grin*