I realized with a little help through one of my inspirations (Leonie Dawson) that really what holds me back is fear. Fear of being too far out there, too much of myself and my struggles, my caustic sense of humor and my childlike sense of wonder always at opposite sides of my own self that I find it hard to find peace between the two.
What if someone doesn’t like what I have to say?
What if I alienate people?
What I really need to focus my energy on is this. I am a sacred individual and as such, there are lessons only I will ever get to share with the world. Things I have learned, Things I have lived through. There is only one of me, with a very unique set of circumstances and genetics that have made me who and what I am.
Who will I help by being honest in such a public forum?
Who will help me spread joy in what is more and more often a miserable world filled with stupidity, ugliness and greed?
You may not know it now, you may not know it ever. However, at some point you will help me make this world a little better and I THANK YOU for it.
I remember the first time I ran across Jess Carlson online and I looked at her website, I looked at everything she does and I remember thinking. That is what I want to do!
Followed closely on the heals of that was, well shit, someone’s beat me to it.
I must say that is the source of a great deal of my inspirational and manifestation gap: Not doing something because someone has already done it.
Well, SO WHAT?!?
Jess’s story is her own, her own way of interacting with her clients is a language only she can speak. Leonie has in her own way through her Soul Biz workbook (I highly suggest it for anyone looking for inspiration for anything really)… it is a language only she can speak.
Just because these lovely people have spoken their piece, and made this success for themselves does not mean that there is no place for me. This is not corporate culture where there is no room at the top. This is inspiration, this is family, this is community and it is what I have been wanting to build for years.
So I thank you all, those who read this. Those who may read this years from now going through some archive for the early days of Skyfae. Welcome, and thank you for coming. I hope to hear from you.